November 2012
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Procrastination
Im writing this hoping that this post will help me realize my time restraints and force me to be focused. The first draft of my research paper is due tomorrow, i have yet to find good reliable research, i have written the introduction. I need to write about 2 and a half pages by tomorrow A friend from out of town is coming to visit and i would like to get this paper out of the way. I’d...
October 2012
16 posts
Lost
Wow… not knowing is the worst, you’re imagination takes over and sometimes for the worst. I spent 4 years trying to understand my emotions, i experienced alot of clarity but right now i feel completely lost and confused.
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Losing shit.
I alwayz lose stuff it honestly sucks. Right now its my cutting mat, the thing is huge, im honestly starting to think that i am haunted by a ghost. Everytime i lend something out it disappears. First it was my flash drive and now its my cutting board.
Sadness
I don’t know what is right for me, i don’t know what i want but this uncertainty kills me. It clouds my thoughts and makes me want to go back to times where i felt more comfortable. The same thoughts repeat themselves, its a viscous cycle. This is general, and thats the way it should be. My feelings are my feelings and i definitely don’t feel comfortable expressing them to...
Sunday.
I feel like i need to be single and not attached to anyone in order too be wildly successful. I’ve been hearing this from lots of people. I really hope i can have both someone to love and be successful at the same time.
Found Mah Shit
All peace and prosperity has returned to willy, i managed to find my notepad of paper. I pulled my first legitimate allnighter it sucked and im really not satisfied with the end result. After walking into classing feel like a walking butt, my teacher handed me my first project and i aced, that made me super happy.
Losing shit.
How do i manage to lose a 18x24 of of paper? Im so aloof, its my nature, looks like i’ll be giving some more money to blick art supplies today : (
Feelings
I’ve spent four years with a therapist and i’m still struggling to interpret my emotions, but thats not to say i haven’t changed. I’ve developed a lot since freshman year of high school and it is my belief that anyone can benefit from a therapist. The transition to college has harder than i expected. Feelings overwhelm me at times and make it hard to live in the present.
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I suck at writing something everyday.
Today i went on a spectacular bike ride to redwoods regional park. There is nothing better than cruising down mountains on my bike. Im not used to elevation, seeing that i lived in the midwest my whole life.
September 2012
6 posts
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Excuse my misspellings.
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I need to start living in the present. Thinking too far into the future gives me anxiety and paralyzes me. Thinking about the past overwhelms my thoughts and makes it hard for me to focus.
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This gonna be my last post for today. Im catching up slowly but surely. I guess there are a few other things besides art that i can devote alot of my attention too. Those things would be: unicycling, biking and various other outdoor activities. Although, i definitely feel like i have no trouble focusing on those things, art means the most to me. I have a deep emotional bond with the act of...
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What is art? Art is unique for everyone and thats the most beautiful thing about it. For me art is a means of survival on a day to day basis. I get so wrapped up in anxiety and stress about getting tasks done that i find myself rarely being productive. I’ve found that art eases most of those negative feelings and allows me to focus on life. It is very hard for me to express/understand...
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This should be like my ninth post but it is only my second. Im gonna do make-up posts, which contradicts the purpose of this assignment, but i’m gonna do it anyway. I just need to get into the rountine of writing here everyday and then i will be set. Sorry for neglecting you blog.
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I’m super happy to be at California College of the Arts! My classes have been alright so far, its pretty hard to tell whether or not i like them. We have been going over syllabi, which is how most classes i’ve taken in my lifetime have started. Im pumped to expand my horizons and try new things. At the same time Im a little anxious about being on my own and handling the work load....
July 2012
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At peace with a crowd full of strangers.
Godspeed You Black Emperor! Well I neglect tumblr but too my few followers here you go. Seeing Godspeed live was a significant moment in my life. The combination of the visuals and the music was overwhelming at times. That said the music separate and the visuals separate were both beautiful. Throughout the performance I found myself closing my eyes and drifting off into an uninterrupted stream of...
June 2012
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May 2012
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